Sleepless Nights

I swear this insomnia is getting to me. I am cranky, moody and just plain tired, yet I can’t sleep.

Two nights ago I told Carl to take away the modem at night and hide it so I am not tempted to stay up. Yet without the internet I still stay up. I was tired, seriously my eyes were droopy and my head was spinning. But I lay down for 2 hours and can’t get a minutes sleep. I tried everything from taking a bath, turning off all lights and sound, holding my breath. Everything. Yet I was still wide awake.

At 2am I got up and went on the computer, opened Photoshop and tried making something creative. Got frustrated, closed Photoshop and then opened Illustrator. My brain was swimming with thoughts and ideas yet I couldn’t produce them. It was like i was in some type of “zombie” state. After an hour on the laptop I made myself some Vegemite on toast. Then for the next 2 hours I watched boring infomercials. OMG I have seen those bloody things a million times yet I sat there for 3 hours straight and watched them. I learnt about ProActive, Principals Secret, Tony Robinson and those sharp knives “that can even fillet a fillet!”

After I watched that I went back to the laptop, and made a ton of smilies and another font. Then I went back to bed and watched a movie. Then finally I drift off to sleep, I feel so relaxed, I start dreaming. Then BEEP! It’s time to get up and go to work.